Two days ago was my birthday. Frankly speaking, so much has been going on in my life and I barely had any chance to celebrate. Turning 29 for me was a bittersweet experience. I am genuinely grateful for turning that much, I mean, in the words of any wise man, how many have not lived long enough to see that age? besides that, I am blessed and have hopes to continue being blessed in big ways. On the other end though, what cant I give to have that 9 transform miraculously to 4? the number 24 didn't just come from nowhere. When I celebrated my 24th birthday, it was my final semester in campus. I was pregnant with expectations of what to find out there, and I was so sure that my first car would be a KBH. hahaaa! Yahah, I'm laughing very sarcastically at myself but sarcasm or not, what would I not have given to be that naive and be so hopeful in life? I'm still hopeful by the way. I will give up when I turn 39, hehehe. 2nd thing, when I turned 24, I was 2 weeks pregnant and did not even know it! You would wonder why I would want to be pregnant; well, for a very simple reason really, it would be Bens! You didn't see that coming, did you? did you?... ah well, I'm working on being less predictable. But it's true, I love every bit of my baby, hair to toe nail, but if I had some sort of superpowers, the first thing I would change is his dad!
Anyway, despite all this, you would think I would get some uplifiting happy birthday messages. They did come, but mostly from my facebook friends, my lovely aunt and my two young cousins. Ben totally forgot about it, but why would I blame him? my own mother and my only two brothers forgot all about it. When I reminded my mom yesterday, she actually apologized by saying that she had totally forgotten I was born. Her exact words "Woi yaye! I'm so sorry sweetheart, I totally forgot you were born. Happy birthday yesterday'! Atleast that made me laugh, bitterly so. Needless to say, 2 days later, my so called brothers still don't remember I am a year older. Neither has my one and only sweetheart. Is this relationship so pathetic? but then that would make my sister brother relationship with my bros pathetic too. Who am I kidding, it is pathetic. I have bad relationship skills and I do not know how to create a presence or to influence. Which brings me to my next question, does lack of these qualities make me a deficient person? is being an introvert such a bad thing? Should I try to change this me and be more outgoing or..? Ok I will change this me, I have decided! And my specimen is: sweet Ben, you will not know what hit you! You will love me without wanting to! hahaaa! Yahah! by now you know the sarcastic laugh, to myself.
What made my day though is 3 great special peopl who picked their phones and called (My cousins and aunt too are very special). The first one was a great man, he only can know himself. He has been a great friend in times of need and hapiness and he has been the easiest to talk to. Thank you man, you are precious. Second to call was a great friend of mine whose work has ensured she is stationed somewhere on the Kenya Uganda boarder for the last 3 years. She is a great friend who remembers me only on my birthday, probably because hers is only a week away. Then at night, my bitcheous best friend who is like me in so many ways (why the hell do I feel the need to change? I love this gal and she is so freaking like me!). Anyway, she did call, for two reasons. 1. She is my best friend and if she dared not call, she knows I will likely commit suicide! ha! 2. She gets intimidated when I turn a year older, it just reminds her how closely next she is, and how much better it would be if she accepted it early enough. Haha!
I really do wish I was turning 24.
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